Dreams
There are 2 types of dreams that I have been thinking about lately.
The dreams that happen when you are sleeping – and the dreams that happen when you are wide awake.
Last fall I learned that my body was in survival mode. Just how long had this being going on?? Not really sure – over 2 years at least.
My body would fight stage 3 and 4 of sleep. I wasn’t getting into deep sleep and I couldn’t remember the last time I had a dream. My oxygen and carbon dioxide levels were totally messed up. I won’t go into more details, only to say that I am now on a C-Pap machine and I have returned to the land of dreaming. Ahhhhhhhhhh. ;)
Wow, I had forgotten how great it is to dream. I also am reaping the benefits of actually getting some healing sleep. My family has really noticed a difference — Just what is it that they are implying? –hmmm.
It has been 6 months – I know this because they notified me that my insurance will now pay for another mask. So in I went and tried the latest – greatest – oh boy.
As I was struggling with this new and improved version, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I really don’t want to have to sleep with this thing for the rest of my life. The thought of being strapped to this machine forever was a bit overwhelming (notice a previous post – “changing”- it could be a pre-meno thing??)
I ripped it off and then considered my options.
A) Sleep without the machine and take my chances. (Depriving Curt of sleep, because without the machine he would watch me and be constantly nudging me).
B) Sleep with the machine.
Here is the kicker, I have tried to sleep without it and problem is, my body doesn’t realize that it is the mask that has made the difference. It just knows that it can go into deep sleep now, and so off I go only to wake with a bolt of action when I can’t breath. Anyone who has experienced this knows that it is absolutely freakish. Not to mention the coughing that won’t stop afterwards.
Kind of like our relationship with God. Sometimes we forget that it is a daily encounter. A relationship not just a religion. If we don’t purpose in our heart to daily connect with God, then we can wake up in a situation where we can’t “breathe” wondering what? why? God? help? Our “breath” (strength) has been knocked out of us and we may be gasping for “air” (peace).
As we keep our relationship with God fresh and alive we will find that when those situations come (and they will) that we have His strength and peace right there. Nothing can happen to us that will surprise God and with God’s help we can come through it victorious.
So, back on goes the mask and on to dream land. (Interesting side note, the medical staff tell me that I should notice weight loss beginning once my body has fully adjusted to the machine - now that is a great benefit!!)
Later I’ll blog about “daydreams”
Have you been dreamin’ lately??
til next time
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I wish they would’ve mentioned the possible weight loss benefit to my mom when she got her machine. Maybe then she would’ve stuck it out for longer than a few days to a week or two when she tried it and maybe she’d still be using it like she should.
Hey Glory, I am glad you are sleeping and dreaming even if it is with that contraption attached. If it’s a choice between breathing or not? I say breath baby breath!
Lisa, I wish they would have told her. Many different ones told me that there was a connection.
Tonya, yup breathing is much better.
I think my momma GAINED weight after she got her c-pap…
Cherie
on your momma. There are different reasons for needing a c-pap I shall hold onto hope that for me it will help with the DTTF. 
Although that may be why nothing was said to Lisa’s mom – it must depend on the “why”.
I can hear the Everly Brothers in my head now “Dreeeeeeam..dream, dream, dreeeeeem.”
Susan, sing it!!